ici je suis

emancipate yourself
from the criticism
of a crass majority

our society is rude
materialistic and half delusional
it has no place judging anyone

i try to remain optimistic,
on account of strong principles

i wait in the wings
quietly, with mounting courage
a maturing minority

listen, it sounds so pretty

watching tv
living vicariously
skydive wedding bride
four hundred lbs
before and after
faster than the human eye
faster
feeling someone else's feelings
crying
elated
and the rock and soul music
seems like your own after a while
greasy fingers soft on the remote
checking on your babies

sleep tight prospecter

pyrite

spring's first sunny day
followed by another
cold night

the wind blowing me hither and thither a hundred and forty
lbs of feathers trying
to take flight

la jolla toledo

53rd & sophia

i'd rather have indescribable than incredible

though both have their own drawbacks

windbreaks on the pacific

ocean english bay

walk until 5am in the day

then wade into sentimentality

3 square meals of love

per day

keeps the water

tepid and serpentine

loose lips sinks ships

the anti-pessimism rally

'je suis', mais non, we'll call it 'trust' in stead

adjusted


disgusted


springtime tesla coil


professional foil

days 63-79...

following in the footsteps of myself,
i tried to figure everything out at once and failed.

laughing i sat humbled in a pool of tears.

the next day was fine and i acted as if nothing happened,
and nothing did happen.

the importance of being earnest

finally a spot of clouds to shade me from the sun

finally
never came and the sun
beat
down
forever
unrelentlessly
foolishly

forever never will come, but it was fun when i was used to the dark
used to having to say
finally a ray of sunshine to dry away my tears

when good days
of conicidal meeting,
and friendships blossoming

grace, simply put ,
happened in the dark

good days

always good days now

and rays of sun to blind myself with

before my skunky encounter with aaron

saturday might just as well have been tuesday or thursday,
and sunday was as depressing as monday
wendesday felt like friday and i had the weekend off

urdaysunday!

i took that time to go to the aquarium,
for free i cut through the line in time to see not only the beluga show,
but dolphins butterflies and shark frenzy too

all after waking on the 12th floor
all after the sunset with sam and sunrise with greg
all after little britian and realizing i want to live in a city
all after matt the art gallery lost and found
all after my excercise
all after the white spot and rose coloured thoughts

everything was over when we walked back,

though we walked through the park,
and felt at home

the streets by the beach were ours,

and our neighbors were everywhere

the air was ripe with a satisfied expectation of a future just like this

but enough with dreaming, life continued after that...